If i diez... ..

As i was laying in my bed the other nite i started to think, what would happen if i were to die tonite as i lie here?

Would my friends know i cared?

Would they kow that i loved them with all my heart?

Would they know that those nites we sat in the dark just talking...

Have meant so much to me?

Do they know all those time we laughed until we cried...

Were some of the best moments of my life?

Do they really know that i hold a special place for them in my heart?

That i smile whenever i see their picture hanging on my mirror?

Do they really know?

How much longer DO i have?

So i guess tonite is just a good a time as any... .

Because you never know... ..

This MAY be the last time i will ever talk to you

Because we all do not know what tomorrow holds... ...

So... .

If tomorrow, i should never wake up... .

I wanted to say im sorry.

Im so sorry for what i have done... .

And what i havent done.

I could have done more

I should have done more

If i harmed u,

Yelled at u,

Ignored u,

Or didnt care... ..

Im sorry.

Forgive me, please?

If tomorrow I should never wake up

I wanted to say thank u.

If me and u were the best of friends,

Thank u for always being here.

There were times when i thought i could never leave u

And if we HAVE parted... .

Thank u for teaching me to love and let go.

Thank u for teaching me that it doesnt matter

If we never see each other.

Because u thought me love can move past that.

And if we are still best friends...

Know i treasure that too.

I love u.

If me and u only talked once in a while

And didnt go to the same parties

And were not good friends:

Thank u for not humbling me

Or tearing me down.

I only wish i had taken the chance to love u more.

If u were someone i once had a crush on... .

I always did admire how u treated people... .

How u lived ur life.

I watched the way u walked down the halls everyday.

I admired how u always seemed to know the RIGHT thing to say,

Even if it was never directed to me.

I always saw the sun in ur smile.

And the sea through ur eyes.

Thank u for making me believe... .

That there MIGHT be someone PERFECT for me... ...

Even if it isnt u 

Know that i even thought i loved u.

If u and i were once friends... ..

Even if for a little bit... ..

Thank u for teaching me about understanding,

And growing up,

Teaching me how to move on.

Thank u for the times we had together... ..

And i beg u forgive me for whatever happened

That tore us apart.

U are not perfect,

Im not either.

But thank u for having a part in my life.

If tomorrow,

I should never wake up,

I wanted to say everything i never had time to.